i need a hug.

i hurt so bad. last night was good, but i am seriously regretting it.
three archers and lemonades before i left, then a malibu lemonade and a smirnoff ice.
my friend then brought us a bottle of rose to share, then clearly it was only fair i brought one too. ouchiiee

i think you're fucking amazing.

don't change.

ohh yhhh so last night

was silly hectic. finished work at half one, got a lift into town (getting changed like a pro in the car) met my friend, went to the canal bar, met some more friends one of which was being all touchy i was like too sober to be nice get off me. brought myself a archers and lemonade, got brought a double shot of this weird liqueur that i've never had before. went to the snooty, got brought 4 £2 vodka and cokes  by different people in the space of half an hour. got given about 10 cigarettes because i had run out. i then spent £8 on vodka and cokes and somehow acquired a double jd and coke. which for a girl is  A LOT to drink in the space of three and a half hours, and thats just what i can remember drinking so god knows if there's more.  two guys nearly got into a fight because of me. got with a guy that i've known for ages and it was proper awkward thinking back but at the time it didn't matter cause i was so drunk. then according to my friend i got with one of my really good friends for ages, which i do not remember at all. and i feel like a massive whorebag. :P i don't know how but i bruised my knuckle and its all swollen, i have a weird cut on my shoulder a swollen right side of my nose. i also walked home by myself and didn't get in till 7am. so yhh weird night out.

i don't like the way guys seem to go for girls who are so simple and boring.

is it because you can get your own way more or something? i could not deal with being in a relationship with someone that is incapable of holding a conversation.

sosoososososo drunk

i shall fill you in on my night tomorrwo, well thats if i remember it.
why the fuick am i only just home and its 7am. ooooops

i really really need you.

there's nothing more i want than to hold you hand.

so basically i'm trying to post something on here every day.

yet i don't really have much to say today. other than one of my best friends came back from holiday yesterday, so i met him and we got dinner (meaning sandwiches from tesco) and sat in the car for three hours, talking shit. theres not many people i can sit in the car with for three hours without climbing the walls well or the interior of the car. which is why he's one of my best friends.

mother said that she can tell i've had decent sleep because my face isn't as swollen any more round my eyes and according to her i look prettier. but mehh compliment, which is impressive for her.